“I would have liked to keep the nose of my ancestors,” she said. “I think I would have grown into it.”
Hadid has been accused of having undergone numerous other procedures, the magazine writes, but the 25-year-old denies this.
“People always have something to say, but what I have to say is that I have always been misunderstood in my industry and by the people around me.”
The new Vogue interview details the “burnout” Hadid says she experienced over the past year, which led her to undergo a treatment program involving medication and talk therapy. “There were people online saying, ‘You’re living this amazing life,'” she said. “So how can I complain? I always thought I had no right to complain, which meant I had no right to get help, which was my first problem.”
As she alludes to “multiple childhood traumas,” it’s clear that the pressures of working in the fashion industry have taken their toll.
Bella Hadid walks the Isabel Marant Fall/Winter 2022 show in Paris. Credit: Peter White/Getty Images
“I’ve had girls on my lap crying at me at four in the morning, still in fittings for one show when they were supposed to be at another show at 7 in the morning,” she said. “Completely destroyed, hair burned, having eaten nothing, exhausted to the point of shaking.”
Hadid acknowledges that progress has been made in recent years, but there is still more to be done because “fashion can make or break you.”
She told Vogue: “Finally the girls are getting up on sample sizes, but when I started seven years ago I couldn’t fit in at Saint Laurent. And I remember a stylist was talking about my weight because I couldn’t zip my zipper.
“In hindsight, I think, yes, because a Saint Laurent sample size of the runway just wasn’t a real size for anyone. But then you think there’s something wrong. not with you, and no one around you says, no, no, you’re fine, don’t worry, it’s a small size.”
Bella Hadid on the cover of American Vogue. Credit: Ethan James Green/Vogue
“I was the ugliest sister. I was the brunette. I wasn’t as cool as Gigi, not as outgoing,” she said. “And unfortunately, when you’re told things so many times, you believe them. I always wonder how a girl with incredible insecurities, anxiety, depression, body image issues, personality issues eating, who hates being touched, who has intense social anxiety – what was I doing when I got into this job? But over the years I’ve become a good actress.